A new beginning
Here starts a new year and for the first time a firm resolution to take control of my weight issues. I’ve always been “fat”. I’ve never really known any different. At one brief period of time, I could shop in a regular department store, but not any more. The smallest I ever was a size 10/12, and that was high school after phen-fen. I would be contented to just remain large, insulated from the outside world if it weren’t for my husband. He loves me more than I ever could imagine. I want to love myself the same way. I want to stop being embarrassed when I am naked in front of him. I want to feel sexy. I want to be healthy. Food has no control over me. I make the decisions about what I put in my mouth. I’ve done things that are seemingly impossible to other people. Why can’t I do this?
I weigh 246lbs. and I feel terrible. I have a difficult time climbing the stairs to my new apartment. I’m tired and hungary all of the time. My back and knees hurt something fierce, and I haven’t even started working out yet.
My husband will keep me motivated and this. This will make me accountable. I have a friend that runs and climbs mountains and other such nonsense. I want to be her. I want to live an active life. I only get this one. I need to make it count and stop hiding from the world.
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It sounds like you are ready to make a change….great. I hope all of us here at this group can help you achieve your goals!
Wow….that is EXACTLY how I felt for so long, I started coming out of my shell about 6 months ago and the hardest lesson I learned was to love myself…..I used to be so depressed all the time, beat myself up over everything, wishing I could wake up one morning and not be me any more, magically morph into some one perfect…oh how I hated everything about myself, and now looking back at how I treated myself I get sad…
I can honestly say now that I love myself, I feel so different in my skin now and I havent even gotten close to my goal weight yet, but I know that one morning I will wake up and be that person I used to wish I could change into…
You can to, you should love yourself, because you are you and you are beautiful and special and have the power to change your life…
I am so glad you are here on this site, because now we can do this journey together, you dont have to be alone!
And it is so awesome to have a man that loves you so much, I am lucky to have one too
Message me any time Girl, we can do this together!
Peace Always,
Leah♥
Thank you all of the words of encouragement. It is nice to know that I am not alone in all of this.