metamorphosis

So, I had a terrible case of the munchies. I asked my beloved husband to pick me up a diet soda at the local market. He came home with a bag of candy bars as well. I wanted one more than I have wanted anything in quite some time. But I resisted. I started reading a book and in about half an hour my craving disappeared. So, well day one has been wrought with endless temptation. I am really not sure which commercials are worst–food or diet products. The food commercials create hunger when there is none, and there seem to be at least ten or more per hour of television viewing. Weight loss commercials sell sex, easy solutions, and offer free humiliation. I am going to have to avoid television for a while. I also find that I am in a bit of a sour mood. I have a roommate with wasting syndrome who needs to gain weight. He finds jokes at my expense through this funny, but I am on a very short rope here. I normally have a higher tolerance for jocular humor, but today I’m hungry hence grumpy. I think some of the physical addiction to food will pass after the first few weeks. I hope, too, will pass the constant obsession over when I can have my next meal or snack. I need to refocus on my life. I need different hobbies.